College Girl who Lives as if She's not Broke (she's broke)

Learning a new identity in the surf/skate sales world  (me) When I clocked in on my first day at a retail job I had no idea what to expect. I’ve always been a shopper since that first paycheck I got from my first job (working at a crappy pizza place). Sales associates had always helped me around stores I shopped at, selling me things without me even realizing... and now I took up the role as well.   and it was a lot harder than pulling pizzas out of an oven.  Working at a surf/skate shop had always been a dream of my adolescent self (the high aspirations of a SoCal beach baby, am I right?), and my 17 year old self had finally gotten the job. But it was more than just being familiar with the name of the clothing brands and saying things like “that’s rad” and “super sick”.  This was a sales job. Meaning sales goals. Meaning make those sales goals or you’re cut.  (I feel like I should also include that this was a  commission based...

When first reading Murphy Paul’s descriptions of learner types I definitely wished that I could classify myself as a deep learner. It is clear that she highlights this type of learner as the “ought to be” for college students. Although I wish my main drive for learning was for pure, deeper knowledge, I find myself at times more concerned with the grades I am receiving in class over understanding conceptually. I know grades should not be the top concern when discovering yourself throughout college, but this mentality seems to have been instilled in me since before high school. College has definitely allowed me to enjoy my classes more, but I do still find myself being consumed by exam grades. As a psychology major, many of the exams taken are vocabulary based. Instead of taking time to fully understand and relate to each term, I’ll cram the night before the exam , answering questions based on memorization, rather than clear understanding.  (I had started this ...